Moderators Ratae Corieltauvorum Posted October 28, 2008 Moderators Share Posted October 28, 2008 Some of you may have noticed a lack of my lacklustre input for a few weeks. Well it's basically cause I regressed to a period of my life and started to drink Moscow and St. Petersburg dry, and in the process, although no violence was involved, I'm too much of a soft {censored}e for that, I put my family, that's wife, 7 year old boy, and 14 month old boy through a {censored}ing shredder. Because I will have a little opportunity to make my shame known locally as it would drag the same family through the gutters, I felt a need to dump, and there's people here who reckon I'm OK.......welll there ya go, I have beeen a complete and utter {censored} to the people who need me most. But being the selfish {censored} I am, I don't want to lose those kids and this family so I'm doing something about it, and something pretty drastic, so that I can at least allow my wife to start sleeping at night and stop worrying that when I drop my son to school I'm stone cold sober......btw, I always was I'm not looking for attention here either, more to expose the fraud I probably am, but I'm hoping that I'll regain some respect as the months and years go on. For those who don't know it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antabuse The deal is I let my wife be my pharmacist everyday so that she KNOWS I can't drink. Glad to be back, sorry it has to be this way Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members roygbiv Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Take care, man. Sounds like you're on the right track now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members NotDead Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Join AA.Drugs don't fix the problem. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frets99 Posted October 28, 2008 Share Posted October 28, 2008 Hard to make a clean breast of things but you're a better man for it for sure. You take care of yourself and take things one step at a time. There's no hurry. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members DaveAronow Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Uhm...Wow. Must have taken alot to post this, and I can only imagine what you and your family are going through. I sincerely wish you God speed in your recovery. Anything we can do to help other than just being here when you need us, let us know. God bless and mojo sent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderators Ratae Corieltauvorum Posted October 28, 2008 Author Moderators Share Posted October 28, 2008 Join AA.Drugs don't fix the problem. I am as well, and probably rehab early next year, I have some internal issues I need to fix. I go to my first meeting next Tues The antabuse won't allow me to drink, it's for my wife's piece of mind, God knows she hasn't had any for a while Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members No Soul Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Join AA.Drugs don't fix the problem. "praying to a higher power" does? Ratae, it sounds like youve got the right idea, and you have decided to give the right things in your life priority. Best of luck to you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Strat87 Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Sounds like you have your priorities straight, and I can respect that. I wish you the best. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Cletus Spuckle Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 I know plenty of people who've gone through it. I've seen AA work wonders. I think you're a good guy and you're putting you life together responsibly. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Geeter Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Hang in there. It's tough, but worth it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Ivoredone Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Stay strong, it's good to hear you are back on track. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members maltomario Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 my old man is a raging alcoholic and i know first hand what its like to spend one's childhood in an alcoholic, abusive (verbally and physically) household. not fun. kudos to you for taking initiative in your life and being conscious enough to realize that your addiction is hurting your family. many people don't have that awareness and entire generations of their family members suffer. It takes a man to admit his mistakes, especially in front of so many people. I wish you the best. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members CompleteGuitard Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Good for you. Stepping up is the hardest part. Its all downhill from here mate. If it's hard, remember what its for. Pulling yourself out of a destructive circle is easier when you have a good reason, and it looks like you have the absolute best reasons in the world, family. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Loudog99 Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Seriously- I don't know you from Adam, but good luck man. It's gotta be hard to look at oneself and say enough already- I need to stop the bull{censored}. Just remember- your kids will carry this with them forever- so it isn't too late. Just keep them in mind through your daily decisions. Whatever harm you have done- it is not too late to undo. They will carry the good things and amends forever as well. Kids are very forgiving if you make good and stay a positive part of their lives. Good luck. Lou Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Senor Cleavage Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Good luck. Admitting you have a problem is the hardest part. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members DRPool Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Congratulations on taking that 1st step and putting those who depend on you ahead of yourself. It certainly won't be easy but I'm betting you're going to make it work. Your wife and kids will think the world of you for having made this change in your life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members A3C Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Sean, you have my respect for being able to realize a change needs to be made, for taking steps toward that change, and for accepting the responsibility and accountability that come with your actions. I wish you success in the coming months. Prayers and mojo to you! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members roughtrade Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 You're not going to believe how much money you have for stuff when you quit drinking. I agree, join AA, you need support in this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Guitar Heel Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Best of luck to you and your family. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members DFB Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Best of luck Sean. I am in a similar situation.You are taking bigger steps to correct the problem than I am.I am my own worse enemy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Gilgators Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Sean, Sorry to hear you're going through tough times. Clearly, you realize what's at stake and what you have to do in order to turn it around. That's a great start. A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. There are people here who think you're far more than "okay". I'm one of them. Feel free to dump, anytime. Prayers, mojo, and best wishes sent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members knucklechutz Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 All the best to you and your family... have been a bit of an alcoholic myself for some time, and I know it aint easy. Take care Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Annoying Twit Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Best wishes for continued stability in all areas. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members 211dave112 Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 Good luck with it all mate, you seem like a good guy. You are already on the right track so all you got to do is stay on it, which I'm sure you will. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members stratman61 Posted October 28, 2008 Members Share Posted October 28, 2008 It will not be easy as I am sure you realize but the rewards will be well worth what you are going to go through now. Keep your head up and win. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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