Moderators Kindness Posted December 13, 2007 Moderators Share Posted December 13, 2007 You do hide it well, though that's not a good thing IMO. I agree on both counts. But see, I'm even expressing myself here in the open. I'm not hiding it that well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members catphish Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 I agree on both counts. But see, I'm even expressing myself here in the open. I'm not hiding it that well.HCBF....it's almost as good as therapy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members xOriginalNinjax Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 Honestly, I just turned 20, and no, I don't think I would. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Verlian Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 Honestly, I just turned 20, and no, I don't think I would. Yeah, plz no de-age now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members J. Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 Since you made the qualification that it would be with the knowledge and experience I currently possess, I would do it in a heartbeat. There are so many things I would do different, and so many horrible things I wouldn't do to people the second time around. If I just had to live it all over again the way it happened... no way. I'm also operating under the assumption that I wouldn't be suffering chronic physical pain as bad as I did back then. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members LanEvo Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 This fog crept into my head at that point, and it hasn't lifted but a few times in the last 17 years. I have bouts of anxiety and panic attacks, and go back and forth between being suicidal and obsessively overparanoid that stuff could kill me.So every day I fight back anxiety, depression, and put constant mental effort into reconvincing myself that all these little dancing lights and spots that I see all over the place, or the muddled speech I hear under various noises aren't anything to worry about. As a result, I'm never 100% sure if my senses are reporting things accurately.Have you seen a physician about this? The symptoms you are describing (persistent hallucinations, paranoia, suicidal ideation, depression, etc.) are not typical for someone who's dropped acid 17 years ago. They suggest, er..."something else" to me (PM me if you'd like details). There are specialists who may be able to help you get all that stuff under control. [/iRRITATING, KNOW-IT-ALL, MEDICAL LECTURE] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members LanEvo Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 Borderline personality disorder. It is ugly. She is smart and well put together though, so no one in her circle of friends and family (outside of me, her doctors, a very few select friends that saw it in action) has any idea. They believe her story that I was cheating on her and threatening to kill her.I had a serious g.f. back in college who, in retrospect, clearly had a borderline personality disorder. All the classic signs, symptoms, and behaviors. Of course, I didn't know it at the time (but I finally figured it out when I learned about personality disorders in med school). At the time, I could just tell something was wrong...and I had a feeling things wouldn't end up well. I was able to convince myself to break it off for my own good.Thank God I did. She turned out to be a total nut-job. Shortly after I broke it off, she started seeing another guy. Years later, the guy contacted me through a mutual acquaintance. He got sucked into her psycho vortex and was foolish enough to marry her (poor bastard). Basically, he felt that she ruined his life.I really dodged a bullet there One of the things with these borderline types is that they can be so damned seductive. I don't mean that in a sexual way (although that's not uncommon either). They just know exactly what to say and what to do to lure you in and screw up your senses. The worst part is, they're not aware that they're doing it. You just get sucked into their web. The combination of being gorgeous and borderline (as my old college g.f. was) is lethal. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderators Kindness Posted December 13, 2007 Moderators Share Posted December 13, 2007 I had a serious g.f. back in college who, in retrospect, clearly had a borderline personality disorder. All the classic signs, symptoms, and behaviors. Of course, I didn't know it at the time (but I finally figured it out when I learned about personality disorders in med school). At the time, I could just tell something was wrong...and I had a feeling things wouldn't end up well. I was able to convince myself to break it off for my own good. Thank God I did. She turned out to be a total nut-job. Shortly after I broke it off, she started seeing another guy. Years later, the guy contacted me through a mutual acquaintance. He got sucked into her psycho vortex and was foolish enough to marry her (poor bastard). Basically, he felt that she ruined his life. I really dodged a bullet there One of the things with these borderline types is that they can be so damned seductive. I don't mean that in a sexual way (although that's not uncommon either). They just know exactly what to say and what to do to lure you in and screw up your senses. The worst part is, they're not aware that they're doing it. You just get sucked into their web. The combination of being gorgeous and borderline (as my old college g.f. was) is lethal. Exactly how it works. Exactly on all counts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members DevilRaysFan Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 The combination of being gorgeous and borderline is lethal. I know this all too well ...... its tough for me - but I make do........... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members willsellout Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 Even assuming I could never have a child or adopt, I would do it in a heartbeat. There is nothing wrong with that. Dan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members 82Daion Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 With what I know now? Absolutely. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members el_duderino676 Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 Considering that I'll only officially be a teenager for another half-week, I can honestly say no. Sure, there were some {censored}ty times there for a while, but if I hadn't lived through them, I wouldn't be half the person that I am today. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Don MC Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 Come to think of it, I take back what I said earlier about wanting to be 25-30 again. I'd now rather be around 20 and dating that Allison Stokke chick. Jesus! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members whatsabass? Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 I'd go back... To have an extra four years of experience playing bass Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Funkee1 Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 I would, if I could be better with women and money.... Oh, and 5........ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Brother Mango Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 snip You mention that you convinced yourself to break things off, and that she was a serious girlfriend. How difficult was it to decide you had to bail? How long did you ponder whether or not you could stay? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members LanEvo Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 You mention that you convinced yourself to break things off, and that she was a serious girlfriend. How difficult was it to decide you had to bail? How long did you ponder whether or not you could stay?It was VERY difficult for me. I was totally in love with her. But I could tell she was nutty. I didn't notice at first, but it slowly became clear as the fog lifted and I came to my senses. After a while I knew that this wasn't going to be a healthy relationship since the girl was sick. I made my decision to break it off. But it was tough, man. She'd call me crying and stop by my place, etc. I don't know if she was being manipulative or genuinely missed me or what. We backslid a couple of times before the break-up actually "took." Thank God I had the support of my sister (whom I'm very close to) and a couple of good friends. At the risk of sounding like a lame-ass, even after we broke up for good, it probably took me a solid year to get over her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members RSBro Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 At the risk of sounding like a lame-ass, even after we broke up for good, it probably took me a solid year to get over her. I don't see how it's lame at all. You have feelings and emotions, and when you use them and put so much into one person for a long time, it takes a while to let those go. Hell, I still think about my ex fiance from time to time, and that was 4+ years ago. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members mrcrow Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 if i was 16 again with what i know now..i would have a constant headachei thought about this the other day...would i do it again the sameyes! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members chubrocker Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 16? No. Now, if 21...definitely yes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members SA Rios Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 I would do it in a heartbeat, knowing what I know now. So many missed opportunities. As long as I remember to go to the same bar on the day that I met wife. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Svi Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 As long as I remember to go to the same bar on the day that I met wife.Aw...... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Phantasm Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 Yes. I'm positive that if I could retain what I know now, I'd do it a lot better the second time around. I'd also already have 14 years of playing experience at 16 years of age. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Melanie Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 I don't think I would. Of course there are things I would do differently and there are things I did between 16 and 21 that are still affecting me in an adverse manner now, but I couldn't take the risk of not ending up with my beau. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members LanEvo Posted December 13, 2007 Members Share Posted December 13, 2007 I don't see how it's lame at all. You have feelings and emotions, and when you use them and put so much into one person for a long time, it takes a while to let those go. Well, you know how it is. After you break up with your long-term g.f. you're supposed to bang a bunch of random chicks and hang out in bars with your buddies drinking beer and telling dick jokes Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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