Dude,quit beating yourself up and go to a software solution.
I like a physical surface to setup scenes/ Cues as anybody does, and having a actual knob or fader to grab is gratifying. So or solution is 3 inexpensive midi controllers link into our software.
Every parameter of any fixture can be assigned, the stacked with similar fixtures, to a knob fader or button.
So much more control, less headache. Many more options for chases and motion.
We are still using DMXis. Been a while now.
Using a FCB1010 when our band needs live control. When we're do other production stuff we use both a Akai MPD26 and a Akai Midimix.
I like them because the have editing capabilities so we can program them to our software easily.
Lots of knobs,faders and cue buttons!