Members sventvkg Posted July 13, 2017 Members Share Posted July 13, 2017 Too bad he's gone. We're all mostly gone. I assume he finished his degrees and went off to teach. He was good at what he did. Would have been one of the best in any small-mid size town. Since I took 5 years off playing covers and NEVER once missed gigging and I seem to be the only full time musician I know who doesn't LOVE what he does, I'm just curious. It's what I do, what I'm best at but I don't really like it and definitely don't love it. I like the $$ for the short amount of total hours involved and can't do any better with anything else. I accept it and approach it like any other job. Very pragmatic. Every other dude I know loves it and considers himself lucky to be able to work. Anyway, my thoughts for the day!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members steve mac Posted July 13, 2017 Members Share Posted July 13, 2017 He did finish his masters and now works in education but still gigs regularly both solo and in a trio. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members sventvkg Posted July 15, 2017 Author Members Share Posted July 15, 2017 I figured out what it is with me. And it's the same reason why I don't listen to any of my songs and I don't play any of my originals anymore. It really depresses and upsets me. It's like I've lost my connection to God. My art the divine. I never set out to play anybody else's material I never want to do. I just wanted to be an artist and create my own music and play it for people. So when I blew out of Nashville without anything really ever happening and all that hip-hopBladen tailgate bro country **************** was happening I just ****************ing buried it. And I know it's good and I got accolades for it there and I made the mistake of listening to it today on the way to my gig and it's just put me in a massive funk and I realize the psychology of why I ****************ing hate every single gig I play. I resent them. Because I see myself as an artist. Not playing other people stuff. I've always seen myself as people should be playing my stuff at cover gigs. It's funny although I would never kill myself I understand why artist do it and I also understand why some turn to alcohol and drugs. Now I've got to get through the rest of this gig and find a way to get out of this ****************ing funk... find a way to get to the point where I can listen to my own material again and even perform it without emotionally spiraling down. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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