With all of the unrest in this world, (as well as on this forum), it has helped me to step back and give pause and think about what I want out of life. What I have to offer also and most importantly to me, what I feel about things to come.
After going through the painful death of my father in law, complete with me giving him the large dosages of morphine up till his passing and watching Leslie and her sister sob, it just showed me how in control I am of being totally out of control.
I have been struggling about my spirituality and God for some time now. I was brought up as a Roman Catholic but have not been a practicing one since Leslie and I were married some 20 years ago. And I must give this forum some credit for helping me understand myself and others feelings as well.
I don't feel anything is wrong with having faith in something or someone, real, imaginary, proven or unproven. If it makes you a better person, helps you get through life or comforts you, that is all that matters.
Every day, as I get older, I look back at my behavior throughout my life. Many mistakes made and many lessons learned. And being honest with myself, more than likely, more to come. I don't feel this is a weakness any longer. I think it can become a strength as I learn not to repeat myself.
That's the key.