I have lived in Melbourne for 2 and a half years. I left a side-project back in my hometown of Adelaide. Things managed to continue as I used to go back to Adelaide often to practice and play with them.
Now it is getting to the point where they are ready to take it a bit more serious and play more often. I have been thinking for a few months now of moving back to Adelaide. But it is a much smaller city. I have realised that music is my passion and one of the reasons I have been unhappy is because I haven't been playing music. I have rather unsuccessfully being trying to get a day job.
So I went to an open day of a music course in Melbourne and saw that it is a great opportunity to meet new musicians and break into the more fertile music scene in Melbourne.
This brings me to a cross roads, I will be happier in the short term back in Adelaide playing music with my friends and possiblly starting another band, but in a much smaller scene. Or I can break my own heart I form new bands in Melbourne with much more playing oppportunities and musicians who would be interested in making the music I want to.
I am very close friends with the members of my band in Adelaide, so it is partly a move for friendship and to eliminate my own lonliness in a new city and also I do not want to let down such close friends of mine.
I feel absolutely frozen by this inner conflict as I can't explore where I currently live musically until I have decided in my mind I am no longer in my Adelaide band. But everytime I go back to play with them or see something on facebook about the band it makes me want to move back and be apart of it.
What does one do in this situation? Do I cut my ties and venture into the new city full of opportunies and wish them all the best (they will be able to continue the band without me) or move back and rekindle my interest with them and form an additional new band in a smaller place?
I feel so passionate about my friendships, band and social network in Adelaide but I feel equally as passionate about music and giving it my best shot. I probably haven't explained this situation clearly enough but any thoughts and comments would really help me work this out.